What is conscience?
In the work there are references to the story of V. Droganov.
Conscience is a kind of controller who makes sure that there are fewer bad things in our lives. Conscience does not give rest, if you lied, smiled, offended someone. Especially it torments, if it is already impossible to correct what has been done.
Thus, the narrator in the text of V. Droganov did not allow Kolka to take the book, thereby destroying the hope of the classmate that this book could be a gift to him for his birthday.
Conscience revived this incident in the memory of the narrator, when it became known about the death of Kolki, and the remorse of this feeling does not let him go for many years.
For some reason, conscience makes itself felt when it is no longer possible to ask for forgiveness. After the death of my grandfather, I remembered many episodes when I was rude to him, inattentive. I painfully remember them, and my conscience does not give me rest.
We often hear the expression “live with a clear conscience.” What does it mean? Conscience is like a notebook of accounting for all your actions, in which the worst and most unpleasant of them appear most clearly and vividly. To live with a clear conscience is to live without regrets, without an acute desire to correct something from your past.
The conscience of the narrator in the work of V. Droganov is unclean, and he can not forgive himself the offense caused by the unlucky classmate Kolka. Why did he put it so sharply in his place and did not allow him to take the book? Why was the reason for his dislike for the classmate only his appearance and his mother standing up for him? Unservedly offended Kolka, persecuted by the whole class, died in the war, and there is no way to ask for his forgiveness.
Recently on the street I was struck
I believe that it is necessary and important for all to live by conscience, because no one wants to experience its torment.
A feeling that does not allow a person to calmly watch the evil and injustice, and also does not allow him to forgive his own unworthy behavior is called a conscience. It allows preserving human qualities in any situation, but if someone goes against it, then the conscience then torments him for a long time.
It is about her the text of V. Droganov: for decades the narrator can not forgive himself the humiliation to which he subjected a classmate, can not live peacefully, remembering how he severely cut him off, how he was greedy and did not find in himself the magnanimity to rectify the situation.
Once I maliciously played a trick on my classmate: I threw his portfolio out of the window into the snow. The portfolio opened in the snow, and all its contents were soaked through. My classmate got a lot from my parents. When I found out about this, I felt very ashamed. I realized how stupid and cruel my offense was, and apologized to a classmate. Despite the fact that he forgave me, I still feel the prick of conscience.
Indeed, it is always worth remembering that life is short and it is necessary to live it with dignity, in accordance with conscience, so that it is not painful and embarrassing for committed misconduct.